My friend noticed the glitch and said: “Avia, your dash is dead! How can you possibly know when to shift (RPMs), or how fast you’re going, or even how much fuel you have? Isn’t that frustrating?”
I hadn’t really given it much thought. Every time it happens I remember the Woodchuck wisdom, and smile.
Moreover, this ‘driving blind’ thing is kind of a practice in gauging my awareness.
When the dash goes kaput, I’m forced to monitor my surroundings more acutely. For example, I pay attention to the speed of the other drivers around me to keep my own speed consistent and within legal bounds.
As far as shifting gears…I just listen to the engine of the Jeep, and it tells me when to move up a gear. “Besides,” I say to my friend Dave, “who uses RPMs on the dash as a signal to shift gears?” I ask Dave. “I do” he shyly confessed.
The fuel gauge, I’ll admit, is another kettle of fish. I just try to keep the levels in my memory banks (which are predominantly fried like my dashboard, but that’s another story).
My point is this: We are never ever completely ‘driving blind.’ There are always additional methods to gauge our progress along life’s path.
Some of these methods might not be our first choice, but when our primary navigation systems are malfunctioning (or seemingly nonexistent), we can always manage ourselves with alternative methods.
Do you rely on a primary system that monitors your personal progress?
Has that foundation/system ever run amok?
What are some other methods you could employ that help you keep your pace, and allow you to keep your progress?
Better yet, try incorporating awareness and other alternative methods in your daily routine.
Run your day “outside the box.” Switch gears and gauge yourself in different ways (before your fall-back system takes a dive).
The following is an excerpt from Rob Brezny’s book, Pronoia (a book I highly recommend, by the way). This excerpt was written by Nia Fil, and it moved me for its sincerity and simplicity. I asked Rob Brezny of Free Will Astrology if I could re-publish this excerpt here, and he graciously granted permission. I hope you enjoy this enlightening slice of perception as much as I did.
MY PRONOIAC TESTIMONY by Nil Fia
I’ve always felt there was a glass wall between me and the world — a see-
through barrier that kept me in my place and everything else in its place,
never the twain shall meet.
But a week ago, as I was driving through the streets of my home city of
Detroit, something odd happened. I seemed to reach out an inner finger
and touch the inside of that glass wall I gaze through. And for the first
time ever, my finger sunk into the glass, just a bit.
A little while later, I did it again, and this time my finger went right
through the glass. Or rather, maybe, the glass was not there, at least
momentarily. There was no longer any boundary between what I saw and
where I was seeing it from.
In other words, the whole world was inside my head. Either that, or my
head had just dissolved.
Let me backtrack. A few months ago, I hated my job. I despaired that my
hobby would ever amount to anything. There was never enough time, and
whatever time there was, I spent it trying to get done all the things I
hated doing but had to do. And then I failed at the whole enterprise, and
not only didn’t I have time to do anything I liked, but I wasn’t getting
anywhere with the stuff I didn’t like, either.
Life was one big miserable chore that never ended. It just bled from day
to day, sucking the vitality out of everything. Even weekends. This in
spite of the fact that I’ve never considered myself a miserable person. I
always thought that being annoyed 24/7 and never having time to be
happy was part of being an adult, and I tried to handle it bravely.
But then on that day last week, I put my hand through the glass — I still
don’t know how — and suddenly the way the morning sunlight lay on the
overpass during my way to work cracked a big smile on my face, and the
whole miserable commute seemed worth it.
The next day, I spent a chunk of the ride to work looking at the trees, and
being thrilled that so much amazing greenery, so many unreproducible
shapes and colors, could fit in my head at once. What used to be “just
another tree” was now an utterly unique thing that I would never have the
gift of having in my head again.
This new knack didn’t go away. It started creeping into other daily
moments. I’m still moving in and out of it now, many days later.
It’s not that stupid things make me happy; it’s that everything makes me
happy. Taking a breath makes me happy. Hearing a human voice makes
me happy. Feeling my hand rise up against gravity and sweep through the
air on its own makes me happy. Yesterday this state — which I like to call
“bliss fugue” — came on after I whacked my knee on the table. The pain
made me happy! Happier than maybe I’ve ever been!
Here’s the weirdest thing about the happiness: It seems completely
uncaused. Not only do my flashes seem to exist in a vacuum. I would
swear the feeling seems to be a characteristic of the vacuum. The
vacuum I refer to, of course, is the sucking of myself and the world into
each other that happens whenever I penetrate that glass wall between us.
I’m truly content folding laundry. I happily concentrate on every spot on
my dishes. Not all the time, but more and more. And it seems the more
stuff gets through the glass wall — the more the world becomes
immersed in me and I in it — the less time everything takes, and the more
I enjoy the “free time,” 10 seconds of which suddenly seem like enough
to justify having been alive all these years.
This is one of those “I might be doing something right, or I might be
losing my mind” things, but I’ve done those before; so I’m cool with it.
But I will mention one side-effect: mild fear. Not during the state itself —
I’m not sure it’d be possible to feel afraid then, though I haven’t had
occasion to test that — but afterward, as I connect to the realization that
something is happening to me that might really muck around with my
ordinary old life. (Did I say above that I was miserable with my daily life?
Well, that doesn’t mean I’m not attached to it.)
Already once or twice I’ve done this thing and had people notice, and
their reaction is always alarm or distaste: “Hel-LO? Are you OK? What are
you staring at? Is something wrong?” So far, this has always snapped me
right out of it. I don’t know how I’d react to people if this state continues
to happen more frequently and for longer periods, and I get stuck dealing
with people from within it. (Would I then be talking to the voices in my
head, I wonder?)
I’ve also noticed that when the bliss fugue hits me, tears sometimes come
out of my eyes due to the weirdest things: the smell of the wind, a bird
that stops and looks at me, a shoelace lying on the sidewalk. I can’t
explain that. I’m not normally an emotional person, especially not in
Well, there you go. Something for your Outlaw Catalog of Happiness: the
Joy of Nothing. ;) I’m going for a walk now, and see if I can do it again.
Note: This is an excerpt written by Nia Fil from Rob Brezny’s book, Pronoia (click the link to grab the book, which is totally grab-worthy). And if you don’t know who Rob Brezny is, you should. Check out his wicked-awesome-jump-jivin-vibe here: FreeWill Astrology
Last night, in the dreamtime, symbolic seeds were sown into the meaty furrows of my brain. Their manifested identities known only to my deeper consciousness. It was a fabulous sensation. The grey matter of my mind seemed willing, pliable and moistly awaiting the first touch of root to mental-membrane.
A good dream. An oracle of potential growth. A sign of depositing new ideas into old rows with the hope and promise of a bumper crop of…of what? Creativity? Productivity? New kinds of nourishment? Food for a hungry mind? New neuro-network patterns?
Who knows. Dream-walking advances at a far different pace than common ambulation. That means, I’ll have to walk calmly between multiple time-lines to see the cycles of growth these dream seeds represent.
But in the meantime, while I’m weeding, feeding and cerebrating over these dream seeds, I thought I’d sow a few symbolic thoughts on seeds as a symbol of consciousness.
Traditional symbolic meaning of seeds include:
Several years ago, while dining with a colleague, he asked: “What’s the symbol for consciousness?”
In response, I pulled out a pen and drew a single dot on a paper cocktail napkin.
“That’s it?” He asked.
“Yep, that’s it.” I said, “The dot represents a single point of awareness. It is, essentially, a seed. It is the point of pure potential. This present moment of focused consciousness gives no clue as to which side of the polarity it leans. There is no gender, no higher or lower, no light or dark. It simply is.”
My colleague protested: “But isn’t consciousness expansive? Pervasive? Everywhere at all times? This dot, or seed suggests limitation, and that’s not how I see consciousness.”
I loved this observation, and after pausing a moment to let his implications sink in, I responded:
“Yes, I agree with your model of consciousness. However, I chose this dot to represent a seed as a symbol of consciousness because it is the point of initiation. Awareness must be initiated. And the concept of initiation is inherent to the ancient symbolism of seeds. So, it’s the idea of initiation…specifically, initiating the potential that is powerfully packed in a small unit (a dot, a seed) that I’m emphasizing here.”
I was reminded of this conversation when I woke from my seed dream.
Those crazy brain seeds! That tiny dot drawn on a cocktail napkin. A single unit of initial potential!
These images made me want to become that dot…to become a seed and
Auger a sense of stillness in the midst of daily bustling.
Be as a seed is: Patient, Potent, Packed with potential.
Be silent, rest in a damp darkness, suspended.
To “just know,” and own remarkable wisdom without the necessity to prove it.
Submerge in resolute assurance that transition, growth and ascension is inevitable.